Bummed

I finally went to the doctor today for my knee. I've been putting it off for about 9 months now. It would hurt for a couple days then it would be fine. That's why I kept putting it off. But, for the last 2 months it's been pretty constant. I know why I haven't gone to the doctor. I know what they are going to say, and I don't like it. I don't have time to have an injury that needs surgery to fix.

The first thing the doctor told me this morning was "So, which Ortho do you want to see". Last time I got a shot of Cortisone (which hurt badly). She said with how my knee is now giving out on me she can't do anything. She also wanted me to get an x-ray before going to the Ortho. Fine, I go to the radiologist to get my x-ray. I sit there for an hour waiting, then finally get called back. The tech asked me if there was any possibility of being pregnant. I told her there could be, but I wouldn't be able to find out for sure until next week. It's still too early to take a test. So, she refused to take the x-ray. She also told me I need to make up my mind on what I want. Either I can continue with getting my knee fixed or keep trying to have a baby. I can't do both, as they won't operate while pregnant. Now I don't know what to do!!!!

We've been trying for almost 2 years now to have another baby. So, I don't want to give that up now. But, my OB doctor wants to try other options if this round doesn't work. And, I don't know how far I want to take the whole fertility thing. Maybe this is just another sign to stop. Maybe we are supposed to only have one child? I'm an emotional wreck right now. All over my stupid knee.